life's a roller coaster
i failed two papers
but at least i was mentally prepared
i really dont mind u noe.. as in i dint feel sad surprisingly
the feeling of being defeated

cos mayb im afraid of feeling sad
but ya mi mum was super sad
teachers were disappointed
sorry wont help
next yr k?

o aniwaes..
macritchie today
i ran 11.2km
SMILES
10k in 1hour
(:
the process wans exactly easy
wif dose wonderful slopes
hindering mi pace
building up lactic

ms ng pushed mi on
she forced mi to press
at the 5thKM
i died
den i stopped
n i stopped mani times after dat
n she kept going
square ur shoulders
stop slouching
punch ur arms forward
stop swinging ur body
press on
u hafta push urself to improve
she repeated dat prolly like 20 times
thru out the whole 10km
den she kept pushing n pulling mi forward dragging mi
until i couldn give up

u noe at the 5th k i was like
omg
am i going to cont'd like dat for another 5 kilometres
den i always stop at the slopes
i tink i gt overwhelmed by the steepness
n i enjoy looking at the grnd
den ms ng will force mi to run tall.. n look up

the forest was long
dense
n i kept kicking stones
den i finally found a posture i felt so comfortable n relaxed
im so glad so glad so glad
u noe the forest is a veri dark place
everytime i c light
i always tink dat im already at the end of it
but i gt deceived like 5 times
b4 finally getting out of the forest

in mi mind
i had nth else bsides to run

aniwaes szeling n lingxiu came
szeling kept asking mi if im okay
ya of course im okay(:
im prettaye strong n i dont crumble at failure
dis yr is a much fruitful yr despite everything
at least i had great tok wif pple dese few days
been toking alot to jiemin abt stuff
even if it means standing at the overhead bridge outside sch at 8plus pm at nite
even if it means walking 4.8k with debby ling all the wae to ECp n baq to sch
i haf more den i wanted
mus b self-sufficient(:
at least i noe pple caree
the cross gals esp
n it's more den enuff for mi

but the least i wan is pple to feel sad cos of mi
n feel disappointed cos of mi
u get wad i mean?

mi mum tink im collapsing
but im nt
she kips asking mi to slp
as if im suffering frm insomnia
n kip forcing mi to eat
mi dad also
like i lost mi appetite liddat

u shld ask CK how much i slept
n the amt of food i bought



u noe
deres dis gal
a veri fine n simple gal
presently is wif dis super charming guy hu's veri comptaible wif her
n she is wif him because he's willing to lay down her life for her n is willing to sacrifice anithing jus for her
deres dis other guy whom she truly likes
n deep in her heart she noes it
but she refuses to admit it
because she doesn wan to let the charming guy down
dis other guy is not bad looking
but shares more chemistry n telepathy wif her

wld u choose sum1 u r more compatible wif or sum1 u truly love
of course the one u truly love rite


it's dumb la
but if i were her
i wld prefer the charming guy
cos i like the charming guy
n he's so compatible wif mi (:
=P

omg i really find wangshaowei hot